Well, the painting continues at our house. Ask me next weekend if we're done or not.
I will say that so far no one has been injured.
That is a miracle considering we have scaffolding in our stairway. At this very moment.
But all this painting has given me time to let my mind wander.
Not always a good thing.
But maybe it was.
Today.
This also might be a little TMI for some. Don't say you haven't been warned.
I am in the point in my cycle where I have hope. Hope that maybe a miracle will happen and we will be pregnant.
It's a long shot. Really, really long shot.
But I serve the Creator. I Am. The One who created and holds all of us in His hands. I breath because He allows it.
He can overcome infertility.
It's only been in the last couple of months when I have allowed myself to feel any kind of hope. I stopped even considering the possibility of a natural pregnancy in August 2008.
I can tell you the day if you'd like.
But since I went to see Dr. K in the spring, I've allowed that hope to creep back in.
And I am so loving it.
My head and the rational human part of me knows how unlikely that is.
But my heart, the part of me that feels God wrap His arms around me when I ask for another child, that part loves to hope.
I have caught myself day dreaming about seeing those two lines. How I would tell Chris. How we would tell our families. Due dates. Even decorating a new nursery.
Okay, and maybe about the cute maternity clothes in my attic. Specifically the jeans. I love those jeans.
Of course, I have a whole list of reasons why a natural pregnancy would be best for us. And I make sure and share those thoughts with God pretty much every day.
But I also end my request by saying something along the lines of, "Regardless of all that though, I want the best and I know that only comes through Your plans for our life. Not what I think would be the best."
Then I thank Him for the 462nd time that day for Aubrey Kate and our sweet family of three.
When it comes down to it, I am grateful for the hope we all have through Christ Jesus. Grateful He can overcome any, ANY, situation, fear or sin we are in.
So whether His plan is a natural pregnancy, another IVF pregnancy or simply for us to be a family of three, that's okay. It may not be easy but it will be okay.
Although tonight, I'm going to fall asleep dreaming of little tee-shirts that say Big Sister. Aubrey Kate would look so cute in one of those!
Right God?
I will say that so far no one has been injured.
That is a miracle considering we have scaffolding in our stairway. At this very moment.
But all this painting has given me time to let my mind wander.
Not always a good thing.
But maybe it was.
Today.
This also might be a little TMI for some. Don't say you haven't been warned.
I am in the point in my cycle where I have hope. Hope that maybe a miracle will happen and we will be pregnant.
It's a long shot. Really, really long shot.
But I serve the Creator. I Am. The One who created and holds all of us in His hands. I breath because He allows it.
He can overcome infertility.
It's only been in the last couple of months when I have allowed myself to feel any kind of hope. I stopped even considering the possibility of a natural pregnancy in August 2008.
I can tell you the day if you'd like.
But since I went to see Dr. K in the spring, I've allowed that hope to creep back in.
And I am so loving it.
My head and the rational human part of me knows how unlikely that is.
But my heart, the part of me that feels God wrap His arms around me when I ask for another child, that part loves to hope.
I have caught myself day dreaming about seeing those two lines. How I would tell Chris. How we would tell our families. Due dates. Even decorating a new nursery.
Okay, and maybe about the cute maternity clothes in my attic. Specifically the jeans. I love those jeans.
Of course, I have a whole list of reasons why a natural pregnancy would be best for us. And I make sure and share those thoughts with God pretty much every day.
But I also end my request by saying something along the lines of, "Regardless of all that though, I want the best and I know that only comes through Your plans for our life. Not what I think would be the best."
Then I thank Him for the 462nd time that day for Aubrey Kate and our sweet family of three.
When it comes down to it, I am grateful for the hope we all have through Christ Jesus. Grateful He can overcome any, ANY, situation, fear or sin we are in.
So whether His plan is a natural pregnancy, another IVF pregnancy or simply for us to be a family of three, that's okay. It may not be easy but it will be okay.
Although tonight, I'm going to fall asleep dreaming of little tee-shirts that say Big Sister. Aubrey Kate would look so cute in one of those!
Right God?
I understand the hope, because really even with IVF it was a pretty long shot for either of us to have a biological child and God orchestrated that so he can do anything! Nothing is impossible with God! Stephanie
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