Somehow I suspect there's more to find...

This is the first Tuesday after the official end of our bible study "No Other Gods". Feel certain ya'll are over hearing about it.

But I loved it.

Loved. It.

I am genuinely sad. I am not ready for this to end. One because I loved this sweet time each Tuesday with the amazing women. And two because I just have a gut feeling I am only scratching the surface of finding my own idols.

I loved listening to Deanne, our leader, and where she is in her life. She's got a senior in high school. Then there are the women in our class. They are young and either engaged or newly married.

Like bought a new bed and it was a queen kinda newly wed.

Because they want to snuggle.

Not me. I want to sleep. And that only happens if Chris and his "breathing" are all the way on the other side of a very large king bed.

So there sit three stages of life. Just starting out, ten years in and raising kids and looking at getting kids off to college. We're missing a true empty-nester and a grandmother.

I have to say, while the ladies have been open and vulnerable with their own struggles, I feel for the first time in a long time that this study was created just for me. Surely others have that same feeling. It pretty much hits you right in between the eyes.

Honestly, I was able to look back over my rather short 34 years and see times when "expected" false idols ruled my life. Oh you know. Physical appearance, work, friendships, boyfriend turned husband. At this point though, my struggles boiled down to my daughter and that all encompassing concept of being extra ordinary. Every issue the author addressed in the study pretty much fit into one of those two categories.

And now I'm dealing with the ongoing battle of daily putting those aside. It's not like they are going down without a fight. Kelly mentions that a great deal. She also warns that God will continue to show us false idols. So basically, I'll never be able to be rid of my false idols.

Which is both daunting and exhilarating.

Anything God can do to refine me, I'm down with. And I am positive that means He's gonna keep showing me the things I am putting before Him. Things I look to for my motivation. Things that will fight me back to stay exactly where they are. If it were just me doing the fighting, I would totally lose the battle. But I'm not on my own. Never have been and never will be.