Several weeks ago (actually maybe more like six weeks now), Posty preached a sermon that has been running through my head and heart like a broken record.
Can’t. Make. It. Stop.
Don’t you just hate it when the Lord convicts you? Makes you uncomfortable?
I’m restless. Discontented. Anxious. Unsatisfied. The Lord’s showing me some things about my life and my heart that I don’t particularly enjoy but at the same time, He’s showing me where my strengths are including some new ones that I’m a little surprised to discover.
Like obsessively making dresses for my daughter.
Oh, I kid.
Because really what He’s telling me is I should be sharing those with others instead of filling up her already over-flowing nursery closet.
Yesterday, just as I was pulling in to pick up Pumpkin, Matthew West’s song “My Own Little World” came on.
I heart Matthew West.
But dang if he didn’t just make me stop in my tracks.
“In my own little world it hardly ever rains
I’ve never gone hungry, always felt safe
I got some money in my pocket
Shoes on my feet
In my own little world
Population me
“I try to stay awake through the Sunday morning church
I throw a twenty in the plate but I never give ’til it hurts
and I turn off the news when I don’t like what I see
it’s easy to do when it’s
population me
“What if there’s a bigger picture
what if I’m missing out
What if there’s a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world
“Start breaking my heart for what breaks Yours
give me open hands and open doors
put Your light in my eyes and let me see
that my own little world is not about me”
So I go back to my questions from earlier. Don’t you just hate it when the Lord convicts you? Makes you uncomfortable?
My answer is…No. I don’t.
I have no interest in living my life just getting by. I’ve seen what the Lord can do. I’m down with continuing to be a willing participant in it. All of it. The broken record sermon. The restlessness. The increase in population in my own little world.
Thank you Lord for speaking to me through Posty, my unsettled heart and satellite radio. A text message telling me exactly what You need me to do would be awesome but I understand if You’re gonna need me to simply step out on faith. I trust You will show me the way, open a window and maybe even a door or six and to continue to speak to me when I am not expecting it. I find those moments really cool.
I realize I ask questions often at the end of my Gratitude Friday posts but I rarely get responses. Hope springs eternal though so here goes: Heard from the Lord lately? Wanna share what He’s doing in your life? I would love to open up Gratitude Fridays to some of you. I know there are some amazing miracles out there!
Can’t. Make. It. Stop.
Don’t you just hate it when the Lord convicts you? Makes you uncomfortable?
I’m restless. Discontented. Anxious. Unsatisfied. The Lord’s showing me some things about my life and my heart that I don’t particularly enjoy but at the same time, He’s showing me where my strengths are including some new ones that I’m a little surprised to discover.
Like obsessively making dresses for my daughter.
Oh, I kid.
Because really what He’s telling me is I should be sharing those with others instead of filling up her already over-flowing nursery closet.
Yesterday, just as I was pulling in to pick up Pumpkin, Matthew West’s song “My Own Little World” came on.
I heart Matthew West.
But dang if he didn’t just make me stop in my tracks.
“In my own little world it hardly ever rains
I’ve never gone hungry, always felt safe
I got some money in my pocket
Shoes on my feet
In my own little world
Population me
“I try to stay awake through the Sunday morning church
I throw a twenty in the plate but I never give ’til it hurts
and I turn off the news when I don’t like what I see
it’s easy to do when it’s
population me
“What if there’s a bigger picture
what if I’m missing out
What if there’s a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world
“Start breaking my heart for what breaks Yours
give me open hands and open doors
put Your light in my eyes and let me see
that my own little world is not about me”
So I go back to my questions from earlier. Don’t you just hate it when the Lord convicts you? Makes you uncomfortable?
My answer is…No. I don’t.
I have no interest in living my life just getting by. I’ve seen what the Lord can do. I’m down with continuing to be a willing participant in it. All of it. The broken record sermon. The restlessness. The increase in population in my own little world.
Thank you Lord for speaking to me through Posty, my unsettled heart and satellite radio. A text message telling me exactly what You need me to do would be awesome but I understand if You’re gonna need me to simply step out on faith. I trust You will show me the way, open a window and maybe even a door or six and to continue to speak to me when I am not expecting it. I find those moments really cool.
I realize I ask questions often at the end of my Gratitude Friday posts but I rarely get responses. Hope springs eternal though so here goes: Heard from the Lord lately? Wanna share what He’s doing in your life? I would love to open up Gratitude Fridays to some of you. I know there are some amazing miracles out there!
Oh girl, I just love you and this post! I think you are right smack in the middle of where God wants you right now, your recognising His voice and listening intently for what He has to say next...perfection. I need to be doing the same.
ReplyDeleteYou sound like my friend Geni!
ReplyDeleteShe just finished a book called "Radical", and is feeling exactly like this song.
I'm excited to see where God is going to take the two of you this year!! :-)
God and I were having a conversation one night, and I was not giving up easily and was worrying unnecessarily...He finally stopped and said "Why can't you trust Me? Haven't I always taken care of you?" So I trusted, and while the answer didn't come as quickly as I wanted it to, it came this week. :) --Darcy
ReplyDeleteThis is awesome :) Many people feel God's nudge and turn the other way. Good for you for recognizing and responding! Love you girl!
ReplyDeleteSometimes I'm all "Jesus, what is going on here?! I do not get this!" and then He is all "Shush your mouth woman. I got this. It isn't your business to get the 'why' right now. You'll get it when it's time. For now, just do it." And then I whine and I go "But it is so haaaaarrrrrrddddd." and then He is like "Fine. Then I will make you." ANd He did/does and that sucked/will suck. And then it was amazingly clear why I should have just listened in the first place because holy cow we love where we are at right now. You get that. You know what I'm talking about. Also Jesus has been telling me to cut the garbage and just love people. All the people. Even the mean ones and the scary ones and the strange ones. Just love people. In Truth.
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