Gratitude Friday…
It always seems this time of the year is challenging. For me at least. I question our decisions, our choices, our journey and take a hard look at the life we’ve created. With the tragic news of my colleague’s loss and several other things that have happened around me lately, I find this to be one of the hardest years. Not the most difficult however, Linda remembers that year well, but still.
I crave two things when I get all introspective. Music and words. Lyrics seem to have more meaning for me these days. In almost every song, I can find a message to grasp. “Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me. Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.” “’Cos I don’t know who I am, who I am without you.” “What about now? What about today? What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?” “This broken heart can survive with a touch of your grace.” “All that I feel is the realness I’m faking.”
Actually, you put all that together and it sounds like I’m dying or something horrible.
It always seems this time of the year is challenging. For me at least. I question our decisions, our choices, our journey and take a hard look at the life we’ve created. With the tragic news of my colleague’s loss and several other things that have happened around me lately, I find this to be one of the hardest years. Not the most difficult however, Linda remembers that year well, but still.
I crave two things when I get all introspective. Music and words. Lyrics seem to have more meaning for me these days. In almost every song, I can find a message to grasp. “Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me. Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded.” “’Cos I don’t know who I am, who I am without you.” “What about now? What about today? What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?” “This broken heart can survive with a touch of your grace.” “All that I feel is the realness I’m faking.”
Actually, you put all that together and it sounds like I’m dying or something horrible.
My life is wonderful. My husband, family and friends are more than I could ever deserve. My Lord is faithful and continues to surprise me with His ability to forgive me. Truly I am humbled by it all.
As I grapple with questions like what’s the next step, what kind of friend am I, do I do everything I can to be the best helpmate to my husband, is my heart honestly grateful for all the things the Lord has given, I find myself worshiping and praying through songs and words no one but me would even consider. So this week, I am grateful to have those messages. To have the questions. To spend a little time in prayer and thought on exactly who I am but more importantly who God wants me to be.
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