Our Grateful Life

Louise

This morning my boss called for me to come help her with something. Normally she says my name in kind of a whiny voice.  She's not a whiny person by it's just her way of saying she needs help using her tone of voice.

Anybody having flashbacks of your mother saying "Don't you use that tone of voice with me"?  Moving on.

However, this morning she called "Robin Louise".  Now Louise is not my middle name but it is a possibility for a middle name if we ever are blessed with a baby girl.  My boss said she thinks it's the perfect middle name because it goes with every first name and has the appropriate enunciation on the last syllable.  Makes sense.

We were going with it because it's my mom's middle name but that works too.

So during this week after Mother's Day when I often struggle with being apart from my own mother and now with the fact that I am not and likely will not be a mother any time soon the nickname hit me really hard.

Now is not my time.  The Lord is in control of this process and even though I have diligently followed the advice of my great-grandmother who warned you should never pray for patience because that's what Job did, I believe I am learning that lesson.  And although my empty arms ache and my heart longs for a Louise to love and raise, I understand I will have to wait.  In all things the Lord is faithful and we find rest in that truth.